It's been a while since I've added anything new to my blog. So much, I've almost forgotten how.
One of the last things I wrote was on the Eve of January 6th, 2007. I wrote because, minutes before that date, something happened to someone I love very much that happened to me on January 6th, 2005.
In a previous blog post, I'd written that I never wanted to forget that date. I don't know why I wanted to remember it. Maybe I wanted to be able to mope around, or lock myself in a room and not deal with the rest of the world, or feel sorry for myself, or whatever. Maybe I didn't want others to forget what happened to me. Maybe I wanted to continue to get the love and attention I got so soon after January 6th, 2005 because for once, I really let people see my hurt instead of putting up some false facade. I don't know -- ultimately, I think it just came down to wanting to feel sorry for myself.
I'm writing this, however, because I want it to be known that, whatever the reason WAS, it is no longer. I do want to remember it, but I don't want it to be a day for mourning and self-pity. Instead, I want it to be a day of VICTORY. Because I can look back and see healing and love and ultimately I can see where Christ has carried me through a tough time and brought me out stronger on the other side.
I also want to remember because it's a reminder that I have something wonderful to be thankful for, something that's so easy to take for granted. I don't want to ever take that for granted again! By remembering 01/06/2005, I hope that I remember how incredibly blessed I am.
So yes, I will continue to remember, but in a good way! And, from this point on, it shall never be mentioned in this blog again.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
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